well....
you might be expecting me to be excitedly updating on my idol chasing
sorry to disappoint you guys coz i will only update it on sat

this few daes, other than the super happy idol chasing
my days are rather dull
i am not having mood swings
it is just that a few things make me feel the fragility of life
i still remember that 4 years ago, i make a wrong decision
which almost make me regret forever
till now i am still blaming myself for that thing that i have did
just becoz i am a science student
just becoz i read too much that i understand too much

ppl ard me are all falling sick or dead
those who are important in my life
those that took a place in my life
passerby ABC

i know i am exploiting my own health too
but i never realise that other people are doin things far worse than me
please, take care of your health my friends and family
if there is any problem you can always find me
don't keep everything to yourselves
it is very very miserable

truth to be said, i once though of being a doctor
definitely not becoz of the good pay
but just to help those ppl who really need help
but the helplessness a doctor felt is always far more than a patient
it is like a first aider knowing wad's wrong with this person
but cna't do anything just beocz i don't have first aid box
or the restriction of laws
a doctor knowing wad is wrong with this patient but never able to cure him
a doctor who is very good but dono wad's wrong with the patient
just becoz the patient don't even noe wad's wrong with him

people, please be observant about ur own life and other ppl's
some little thing might be a starting for a bad thing
being someone who had gone through it
i noe how it felt to almost lost your love one
never let it happen in your life please
at this point of time, tears seemed to be unstoppable
sincerely appology to those who saw me sia suay on fri
sry abit it coz i reallie can't control myself at all...

thinking of u at
9:16 pm